For every good season, there are more than enough bad ones. Jesus worded it like this, Matthew 6:34 NLT "So don't worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today's trouble is enough for today." Last year was a season of many lessons. Things that I wrote down in my journal. Some things are only written inside my soul. It's odd because although I might have changed, my life hasn't changed at all. I work, I sleep, I eat. I’ve been doing it for a long time like everyone else.
Very rarely does our external life reflect the inner dilemmas of the heart. It's as if the universe is forcing you to understand that all the worries in the world can't change the weather. Sadly, good intentions don't make good habits. Good actions are the best examples of good intentions. I can buy all the books in the world but if I never read them do I really own them or did I just waste money?
The point of a book is the words on the page, not the price on the cover. The point of our life is the soul inside of us, not how people rate us or judge us. Some of the greatest wisdom I've read came from books people put in the free bin at bookstores. Some of the greatest lessons I've learned were from people the world wouldn’t value too much. Children or long-lost friends. Especially with my nephews and niece. I keep messing up and they keep forgiving me like i never messed up. In fact that they are excited to see me. I have done nothing to win that but they have the love of a child.
Jesus said that unless we have the faith of a child we can’t enter the kingdom of heaven and I'm beginning to understand that dynamic. All of the negativity, the failures, the mistakes, the problems. They don’t hold onto those things. Every day they show up with those hopeful eyes looking forward to the future. That's the way that I have seen my own faith. Every day waking up with hope in my eyes and looking ahead in my heart.
Of course, this is my own writing and I might write myself like the superhero. But I am very human and not perfect in any way. The best lessons you can learn often come from the mistakes you face. This past year I had to struggle to keep my joy. Being away from any church family has taken a toll on my desire for joy. The world doesn’t look forward to joy, it tends to look forward to physical things that joy sometimes doesn’t encompass. Joy is so much more than a physical state but a state of being past your physical presence. I have found that the devil tries to steal the meaning of joy as often as possible.
And so, I keep learning. How to not let what's stolen from me define my value. How to not let my mistakes decide my path to hope. How to not let my weakness define my strengths. How to see past the problems of life and enjoy the point of it. I pray we can all enjoy this life. It’s the only one we have. I think God means for us to enjoy it.
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